Its really been a very long time and I have missed writing to you my readers so much, even at some point I thought I may never be able to make a post for a very long time for it has actually been tough and rough from the unset of 2018, lost of value, disagreements, misunderstandings, arguments, and lots more of odd cases that took strength and tears from me, at some point I asked myself lots of odd questions and wanted to give up on a lot of things and people but all of a sudden, my strength was renewed, I felt relieved and free from all of the odd happenings around me, why? What brought that sudden strength and hope, I asked myself, was it my lust for this life or my love for it. Lust and love usually seems similar but are very different in their own separate ways. One is an obsession, like an hungry lion, prepared to devour anything on its way, while the other is sacrificial, hope, freewill, embracing, believing, trust, meek, gentle, passionate, and forgiving. I found one and un